I find myself feeling the need to come on here and write when I’m feeling a bit…melancholy.  I suppose that’s the word.  I thought about that this morning; how this blog is not a reflection then of how I am in “real” life–the girl with a constant smile on her face.  I’ve noticed the tone around these parts has been a bit serious and that may be the season I am in.  But this will be the last post of that sort, at least for a short while.

I am so excited for the month of May and what I’ll be sharing on this blog.  Be sure to check back tomorrow for a post where I will explain!  For now though…

Today’s been a bit rough.  May 1 is a bit rougher as I explained in this post last year.  But it all started on April 30 and that’s where my mind has been all day.

Five years ago I experienced a miscarriage.  I’ve processed the event enough to know it is not the worst thing in the world that can possibly happen to a person, and, yet, it hurts.  You know?  This date is etched in my mind and I woke up remembering that five years ago it was a normal morning.  By mid-afternoon, I knew my world was changing.

I’ve done a lot of reading on miscarriages since that time and I appreciate each and every word I have read from other women that have gone through it.  You don’t wish that pain on anyone and yet you are comforted to know you are not alone.  The thing about miscarriage is that it is forgotten by everyone, pretty much…except you.  No one would know the grief I carry in my heart today unless I told them.  No one asks.  No one follows up.  No one brings meals.

And I’m not putting that responsibility on anyone.  Again, there is SO much else happening to people who need help, and rightly so that they should be the ones to receive the calls and cards and meals.  But the heaviness is there.  And to not express it would not be true to who I am.

I think I don’t share so much of the “happy” times on here because I see how easy it is for people to share those parts of their lives.  But I think you learn the most when people share their pains and trials.  The nitty-gritty is what propels me to seek after God.  It feels real.  I hope that when I write, people do not see it as something depressing.  Rather I hope the right person is reading and it is comforting to them to know they are not alone in whatever struggle it is they are going through.  Whether it’s a lost baby or anything else.

I am hopeful for what May will bring though.  I trust it will be a month of encouragement and finding joy in our callings.

But for today, as the rain drenches New York City, I allow the weight to bear down.

Five years have gone by quickly.  Thirteen–the number of years my hubby and I have been together as of tomorrow–even faster.

And I am grateful for all the tiny moments, good and bad, that have added up to this beautiful life I get to experience.

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Daily Cleaning Tips

cinderellaWhile going through some paper work the other day, I came across a notebook where I used to jot down daily “to dos.”  Taped to the front was a list of daily chores that one could do that takes less than 30 minutes per day.

I’m at a place as a homemaker where I do not need to refer to a list like that anymore.  It is very much ingrained in me how to keep my home tidy with little to no effort.  I am not talking about a deep clean!  I’m sure you will find enough dust bunnies under my couch to fill your Easter basket, but simple cleaning techniques that make you feel good to be in your house!

I did not know where I cut out the list from, but leave it to the good old internet to find it for me. Actually, I could not find the original article on Real Simple (one of my favorite resources, btw!), but ended up finding it here:

How To Clean Your Home in 19 Minutes

From there, you’ll be able to click on links that will take you do an expanded article on the actual Real Simple site for each room.  They will also provide you with tasks you should do monthly and then seasonally.

I cannot stress enough how much of a good habit this is to form if you are not already doing it.  I rarely have to “deep clean” because by wiping everything down often, messes don’t build up.  It’s also to your benefit if an emergency comes up or someone happens to drop by–your own is always at the ready.  I love leaving my home knowing it’s not in disarray and coming home and not having to do any housework if I’m not up to it!  Everything is wiped and put away.

Have any housekeeping questions you’d like to ask me?  Feel free!  It’s not a glamorous topic, but it’s something I know I want to write about on the blog; how to keep a home without going crazy.  I’ve only been at this a little over a decade now, so I’m no expert (That’s my mom!) but I have definitely found things that worked–and did not work–along the way.

If you’re like me and to need to keep these types of task lists in front of you, I’ve created a Word document that you can print out and hang up somewhere .  Again though, there will come a point where it’s second nature and you’ll laugh that you ever even needed to refer to a list.

How To Clean Your Home in 19 Minutes

Happy Cleaning!

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